The Reason My Heart Beats


2012-12-02_164931_zps88cf3691

Billee. 18. Idaho.
Music is my everything.
I'm a banana.

If you’re my follower and you don’t know who Motionless in White is or why I reblog pictures of the same 6 guys wearing makeup, I’m sorry.

Thank you for not unfollowing me.

If you’re into Harry Potter, Motionless in White, The Word Alive, Memphis May Fire, Of Mice & Men, The Used, Pierce the Veil, Lord of the Rings, Loki, tattoos/piercings or Every Avenue follow the shit out of me. I’ll follow back :]

My dooooorm rooooom.

One time I was blaring Motionless in White with my windows rolled down. I drove past a group of black people and I got the dirtiest looks I have ever received. It was probably the best moment of my life so far.

#blackpeopledontlikemetal

Excuse my nappiness. Chris <3 

Warped Tour 2012 Breakdown (hahaha Breakdown)

The Ghost Inside:

They were so fucking sick and put on an amazing show. I’m just starting to love them and glad I got to see them. <3

Of Mice & Men:

I FINALLY GOT TO SEE THEM LIVE!!! Austin is such a beautiful man and huge inspiration. The clean vocals lacked a little bit without Shayley, but still pretty good. The Depths was even better live. I’m upset I didn’t get to go to the signing because you had to have a wrist band and I didn’t get one in time.

Breathe Carolina:

I used to love these guys. I really hate what they’re turning into. They’re new stuff kills me. I loved the days of It’s Classy, Not Classic, and even Hello Fascination. I love both David and Kyle, but David is just so boring on stage, while Kyle runs around like a mad man. Their set was alright for the most part, but I wanted them to play older stuff.

Mayday Parade:

This was my 6th time seeing them. They were just as beautiful as ever. Derek is so adorable I just want to hold him.

Pierce The Veil:

Second time seeing Pierce the Veil. It amazes me how Vic sounds exactly the same live as he does recorded. I love being able to yell and scream every lyric to every song. They played King for a Day with Kellin and it was perfect.

Chelsea Grin:

I just recently got into them and it was my first time seeing them. Man, they are brutal as fuck! I wish I didn’t have a broken collar bone because I would have loved to rage in their pit.

The Used:

OHHH MY FUCKING BABY JESUS! Their set was beyond incredible. This was my second time seeing them and each time I was reminded why I fell in love with them when I was 11 years old. They’re the reason I got into this kind of music and the reason music means so much to me. My brother and I have bonded over The Used and I just have a special connection to them. They changed my life and continue to blow my mind. They played three new songs and I felt like I was the only person who knew every word. During Now That You’re Dead, they made a massive circle pit and I was pissed I couldn’t join.

Motionless in White:

My heroes. This boys mean everything to me. I would do anything to see them. It’s so hard to put into words how much I love them. It was my 5th time seeing them and they never cease to amaze me. While I was buying merch at the beginning of the day, I saw Balz by their tent and I freaked the fuck out. He gave me the biggest hug and was so sweet to me. Before their set, Emily and I were lurking by the side of the stage. I looked up and I saw Ryan, then Ricky, then Angelo, then Ghost, then Balz, then finally Chris. I seriously stood their looking at them for a good 10 minutes. They’re all just so beautiful. All of them together in their stage make up made my heart explode. They were all so dressed up and looked so classy. Their set was fucking amazing. They opened with Abigail, then Creatures, then Puppets. They played their new song from Infamous and Chris explained the background behind it. My gawd it was amazing. Ahhhhh!!! Then they finished with Immaculate Misconception. They had smoke machines and it was all just so fucking sick. They always put on the best show. I got a picture with Chris after their set and it made my life.

Sleeping with Sirens:

This was my first time seeing Sleeping with Sirens. Kellin sounds exactly the same live, which really surprised me. He’s so fucking adorable. I really enjoyed their set. I like their first album a lot more than their second, but they a had a good mix of both. Emily and I had been screaming all day, like hardcore screaming, and we’re both pretty good at it. I was screaming during Sleeping with Sirens and this guy turned around and was like “Was that you?” “Wow I’m impressed.” and then he kept talking to me. My favorite part was after their set I was walking away from the stage and Kellin Quinn was right in front of me. I casually reached out and ruffled his hair and kept walking. Then a group of like 30 screaming girls went past me running after him. It was great.

I cannot wrap my head around how fucking excited I am to see Motionless in White for the 5th time in a week.

Hopefully I can meet Ryan, Angelo, and Ghost this time

It’s always wonderful to see Chris, Ricky, and Balz again as well.

Aafjioaweuoiwafjhaiowejfialkjefa and I get to hear a new song from Infamous. Fuck I can’t even handle this!!!!

Listening to When Love Met Destruction makes me want to take off all my clothes.
I seriously wish I could make love to music.

I keep myself alive, just to die more every day

I fucking love birds, especially crows

I want a Motionless in White crow tattooed on my foot.

#proudtobeacreature

  • Hater: Justin Bieber looks like a girl
  • Beliebers: WHAT THE FUCK NO HE'S NOT HE'S WITH SELENA HE GETS MORE PUSSY THAN YOU FUCK YOU YOU'RE JUST A LONELY FATASS WITH NO LIFE.
  • Hater: Devin Sola looks like a girl.
  • Creatures: We know.
Minus the T plus Motionless :]
WIFE SWAP TONIGHT! FUCK EVERYTHING ELSE!!!!!
That includes you homework. Bitch.

I Need You To Tell Them Go Fuck Yourself

Motionless In White is the background picture on my laptop. My sister saw it and freaked the fuck out and was telling me how creepy and disgusting it was and asked if I found those men attractive. I said of course I do. I’ve seen them 4 times and met them all and they’re the nicest men I’ve ever met in my life and about how Chris is my hero. She started telling me how I don’t know anything about them and that I couldn’t have talked to them for more than a minute and any guy I’ve only met 4 times would be the nicest guy ever and continued to tell me all this shit about the band and Chris like she knew them personally when she’s never even heard of them before. I was about to rage. I was going to yell and flip shit. Motionless In White’s message is the exact opposite of what she was saying. They’re out to prove people like her wrong. I just thought about how much those boys mean to me and everything they stand for and calmed myself down. I know the truth about them and I don’t give a fuck what anyone thinks. I’ll defend them to the death. Ricky, Chris, Angelo, Ryan, Balz, and Ghost my boys forever and ever <3

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